So about last night...

Bad night.
Bad dream.
Forget about it.
Because I sure as hell am.

Ohai.

Disclaimer - The one named used in this blog has been changed to "Her" for the sake of...well...I don't know. Just don't question it.

So I'm sitting at home, looking around it, hearing nothing but the noise of my shitty computer speakers about to explode (really got to call someone about that this week), and I'm slowly coming to the conclusion that this weekend was a total waste.

For those of you who don't know, I went home this weekend to be alone since my parents are in Florida for spring break. I wanted the chance to get away from it all, to clear my thoughts about a few things, and figure out what I'm going to do.

Here's the part where I have to be completely honest with a few people...

Dear Friends of Mine of Which I Have Not Told Everything To,

I have been a very stressful person as of late, more so than usual, I know. For the past two or so months, I have been very concerned about my dad. His vertigo attacks were becoming more and more frequent, along with more powerful. They were really beginning to take a toll on his physical self, along with his enjoyment of life. The last attack he had actually happen while he was driving, in which he crashed his car, and just barely walked out of there alive. Obviously, I was very concerned about my dad, and it caused me to be depressed and sad. On top of everything else going on, it was a lot for me to take in. Though, because of the most recent incident, he's going through with one of the treatments offered to him. I hope the best for him, and thank you all for your thoughts and prayers as me and my family go through this fairly difficult situation.

-Jeff Lipton

Alright, now we can move onto the issue at hand...

I am not my own
For I have been anew

Shut up Owl City. I'm trying to talk.

So this weekend, I was going to figured things out with me and Her, since that was the last issue that needed to be taken care of as far as my life goes. I've signed up for a Career Placement Test, my dad's alright, so the last thing is between me and Her. If were together, if she's getting together with someone else, if I'm holding onto false hope (again). But, fate is a bitch, and the other dude is coming with her to take me back to Purdue. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't a little irked about this. Though, she really needs someone with her when shes night driving. We were supposed to talk about everything on the way back. HA. Not happening anymore.

Am I an ass for thinking these thoughts?

Oh well.

Obai.