Conversations With Myself -Part 2

Ohai.

So I guess that we're doing it this way.

"What are we doing?"

Fuck...Get out of here right now. I'm trying to be serious and you're coming back into the picture. Can't be serious with your stupid ass here.

"Woah...Someone is in a pissed off mood, now arn't we?"

Well, when I have to fight with myself to get anywhere, that tends to happen. So yes, you are pissing me off.

"Well SORRY! I'll back off then."

Thank you.

"...asshole."

I FUCKING HEARD THAT!!!!

ANYWAYS...

So you think that I never cared? You think that I gave up on you? Ask people who were around you at the time. I'd call them almost everyday to check up on you since I knew that you wouldn't talk to me. I had to talk around to make sure that you were alright. I constantly thought about you. I constantly missed you. I STILL constantly miss you, and...

"Shit, seriously...you're going on this bullshit again? Just give up. She spent the whole other night telling you how much she hated you."

....Even when people like this were screaming in my ears to leave you alone...to be done with you...I was still there for you. Sometimes direct, sometimes indirect. This was only because sometimes when I tried to help you...all you would tell me to do was, "Fuck off and leave me alone."

"Maybe you should've taken a hint."

Didn't I tell you to fuck off?

"Yeah, but I'm you, and you don't listen to people when they tell you to do that, so what makes you think you'd listen to yourself?"

...Touche.

"Continue."

Prick...Moving on. I do still miss you...have missed you since I felt like you didn't want me around anymore. I'm wishing I had done things differently now. Now I don't know if you even want me as a friend anymore. I hope that's not the case...but if it's best for you, then it's best for you.

ur my best friend...im sorry i made you feel any other way
im sorry i didnt open up to you fully at times
and im sorry i pushed you away when we both needed it the most
in my mind
i thought if i did that youd come in more
but i was wrong

I'm not sure what else to say. I want to see you in person...soon. I can't talk about this over text. I can't talk about this through blogs. I want my friend back...I've missed you.....

"...You are such a fucking pussy."

...I know I am.

Obai.