As we stand at the edge of the world...

Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
Bad song choice?
Ohai.

Soooo...It seems that everyone is starting their blogs back up again. I've said this before, but I love getting inside the minds of other people, seeing what's really going on in their heads rather than what they try to trick people into believing. Sad that through these post are the only way I can do it sometimes, but that's what happens when no one trusts anyone anymore. Including myself, but that's beyond the point.

Excuses me sir
But I had plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right.
My reply...

Girl, back the fuck away from that ledge.
What is you, stupid?!

....Sorry. My inner black.

Last night was a bit of an eye opener for me. My iPod decided that it hated me and wanted to bring back some memories that I kind of wish would just go away. Two songs in particular, it played at least two or three different times back to back. These songs bring up a time where I almost wanted to kill myself, and a time where I was the happiest I had been in what felt like years. Granted, some of those memories I don't want to forget, If anything, they helped me become the more solid person that I am today. It just was a bit of a trip down memory lane. And to be honest, I cried. I cried for the first time in months. It felt good....But damn I really do miss some of those times...

Eh, you win a few, you lose alot.
Or if you're me
Excuse me miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to.
You lose them all
She said I don't care
You don't even know me
I said I know
But I'd like to change that soon
Hopefully

So...Something to write about...Anything to write about.........I've got nothing. Seriously. Only thing on my mind right now is fall break and what I'll be doing. May be heading off to go visit ClaraBella like I promised her I would. Should be a fun time if I do. Was thinking about going and seeing my Archenemy, but she's heading off to Florida for the weekend. Lucky bitch.

Yeah, we all flirt
With the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion
In one simplified motion
You see the trick is that
You're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable
This misery gets
Meh...
So I've been thinking more and more about what I want my major to be. And to be honest...One idea has come to mind. But then I remember that I actually want to make money and get somewhere in the world. So that idea goes away. Then another comes, and goes. And it's just a never ending process it seems. I don't think I'm ever going to find a major or a career that I'll actually enjoy and make enough money to live the lifestyle that I have in mind. Nothing flashy or vibrant or anything. Hell, I'll more than likely live by myself for the longest time. I just want to live comfortably. Is that too much to ask for? Apperantly in this day and age it is.

I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motervation
It can never be enough
I could stand here all night
Trying to convince you
But what good would that do
My offer stands and
You
Must
Choose

Other than that, I've been staying true to the things that I said in my last blog. I've been eating healthier, working out a little bit, and staying away from most, if not all, of my nerd stuff. My bro has all of my Yu-Gi-Oh cards back home, so the only thing I have here is my DS and my Pokemon game. Only think I want to do is go shopping for some new clothes sometime soon. I could use a new look. I'm kinda tired of the old me, and it obviously doesn't work. Or whatever.
I don't know. I think I'm just kinda bored with the old me. Meh. Lots to think about...Never enough time....

Alright you win
But I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than
My attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me
I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming.
Damn right, you won't.
So yeah...I honestly don't have much more to say. Maybe I'll come up with something better later tonight and write another blog. I mean, it's only 11. I won't go to bed till early anyways. My mind is constantly racing, especially after last night. I also had a nightmare...Same one from a few months ago. Haven't had that dream in forever, but I have the songs to thank for that, I'm sure.

Settle precious
I know what you're going through
Cause ten minutes before you got here
I was gonna jump too.
Yepp...Bad song choice....
Obai.
So much for sleep tonight.