All the time

Now the look in your eyes
And then the tone of your voice
Suggest that just like me you wonder
If we made the right choice

Ohai.
So much for a break from these things.
So I'm back I guess. I don't know for how long, or whatever, but I'm back for the night. I think I just needed a break from the same repetitive crap happening. Granted, nothing has really changed, but I need to vent. I've got no one to vent to, so I'm going to use this. No one reads this anyways, so I don't really care.

But I neglected to mention you're on my mind
All the time
But I neglected to mention you're on my mind
All the time

A few days ago, my dad had a vertigo attack. If you actually read these, you know that I suffer from these as well and I tried to give you a small taste of what they're actually like. Well, for my dad, they are worse than I could possibly imagine. When it happens, I get really scared. The look on my dads face...I've never seen a person go from color to sheer white so fast. The night was going good too. All the Liptons sitting outside, drinking and talking, and a few of us all smoking cigars, myself included in this. Surprised me that dad let me have it, what with mom right there and all. She flipped shit later, but that's beyond the point.

After the attack happened, I was really shaken up...
Still am..
I really wanted someone to talk to...Just someone to tell me that everything was going to be ok. Call me a baby/pathetic/whatever the hell you can come up with. I just needed the reassurance to get through the night without totally freaking out. Though, not to my surprise, no one seemed to really care. Which is awesome. Pay no mind that I go out of my way for just about everyone who is even remotely close to me, and when I just ask for a few minutes of someones time, I can't get anything. Wasn't until after the fact that my friends started realizing that something was up. It's ok. I got support...Just not when I needed it. Maybe wanted is the better word.

Maybe I'm selfish. I think I am....
I'll get over it.
The silence hung in the air
For just a moment or two
Then you said goodbye to me
And I said goodbye to you

Moving on. I've got a post in mind for the next one. Giant post, so it may not be up for a while. But I feel like writing it. There are so many people in my life right now that I just couldn't do without. Most of you know who you are. But yea. Stuff. And things.

That's all I got.
LIES! SAY IT! SAY IT!
Obai.
DAMN IT, NOT AGAIN!
But I neglected to mention...